Hi, I am back after some 5 months’ silence, recuperating from my own financial disasters (unrelated to the global financial crisis as it happened before that) and survived a physical assault by a robber. It was a time when misfortune comes visiting week after week, as if to see how long before we curse God.

Some people added salt to injury. They kept their distance. Some said I must have worshipped the wrong “god”. Some said I had been stupid, that was all. Some said I had wanted the misfortune that was how I attracted all of them to my backyard. Some just laughed at the incredibly series of misfortunes I suffered. I could only smile and remain silent. What can I say?

It was the darkest time in my life. I lost all I had, I almost lost my life too. Friends have all deserted me, for fear that I may seek them for help, which I didnt even intended to. It is very confusing for this is the reward for being kind and helpful to others? I was never greedy. Neither was I evil. Why do I have to see my fields devastated by the locusts that came uninvited – my fields all barren and poisoned with debts that were not my own? Evil visited me in sheep’s skin, indeed. And who cares?

Yet, I realized, if anything good comes out of these crisis that hit one after another, is the fact that even as our outer and inner worlds are falling apart, we can be assured that:

1. God is still there, if we seek Him;

2. The most important life-sustaining elements – the air we breathe, the water we drink – are still free and available;

3. The love our family/ children have for us are still intact – those love that overcomes everything will remain.

I may never understand the reasons why bad had happened to me when all I had was kindness and goodwill for others. Yet, I believe God who allows all things to happen right under His nose, knows better.  I surrender the circumstances to Him.

Besides, it is exactly a year since the evil came knocking on my door. Yet, today I am still here, albeit all broke due to the vicious fraud and other crimes against me, never did I have to go hungry or homeless. But each day, deeper understanding and awareness of evil and its necessity made me stronger spiritually.

If any of you out there suffering unjustifiable pain, or loss, hang in there. It is good time to seek the Healer, God Himself. Someday when spring comes again, we will look back and say, “Aren’t we grateful for the experience in the wilderness?”

I know that day will come, when God restores His faithful ones – including me.

Peace to you all. Be shrewd as the Serpent – and harmless as Dove!